I still remember you through your songs
Current mood: sad

[04:42] u0 LumiNax 0u: I can't bear to be sad
[04:42] u0 LumiNax 0u: I won't be able to pick you up being sad
[04:43] u0 LumiNax 0u: I can't bear to be happy
[04:43] u0 LumiNax 0u: leaving it for your enjoyment
[04:43] u0 LumiNax 0u: thinking that the sunset would rise
[04:44] u0 LumiNax 0u: and infect you with the miracle

Translation from RICO

I MISS YOU

  I felt like I took you for granted.  I miss you.  "You don't know how good you ahd it until it's gone"  No not use in looking back.  I cherish every speacial memories from the past and hope more to come in the future.  I just wish you the best because you derseve everything.  I always new you were not another guy.  Something are more important to me when is gone for awhile.  I'm sorry if is hard to understand me. Without you here.....I don't know how to be sweet or feel sweet anymore.  I get piss off more easily after you're gone....I'm starting to cuss alot AGAIN when I'm annoyed.

I’m content for the MOST part
Current mood: content

 Life is good right now. I'm grateful and I'm not complaining much.  I deleted a few friends out of my life that I can live without.  I only need people that really care and make me : ] Every friendship has it up and down but which one is more meaniful and can last a life time or worth it.  I just wish people would understand if not listen with their heart and not talk out of their ass.  I'm easy to get along with but very hard to be satisfield.  I'm complicated. Learn to DEAL WIT IT or just get the fuck out of my life.  Is not that hard.  Everyone just want to be happy as long as possible.  "Do whatever make you happy" Nobody said life was easy.  My dad piss me off as always but I get used to it.  Sometimes, he say the most annoying thing and sometimes it make me : [ than he try to be nice.  I can try to be a little more sweeter too.  I'm growing up and I just want everyone I care about to be happy.  I have my own life now so I don't worry about that to much.  Some people have it worst. 

  I'm more blunt now and I can be harsh at times but I always have an intention.  I don't say shit for no reason AT ALL not some dumbasses.  I don't like to regret my words and I'm learning to speak from the heart.?  Everyone is growing up.  Traveling and observing people from different places of American do make me relized  ALOT.  I was overprotectived but I will hate it than and I'm going miss it. 

I met the most cutest boy inside and out and he loves me but we're living apart from the opposite side of the United State.  I wish I still live in Seattle or he was from here.  It's complicated as always. I know my faith.  It will always be complicated.  Tim said I need to stop living in a fairytale.  I always wanted one of my own as a child.  My grandpa told me my love life is always going be complicated but it will work out in the end.  He was looking at the palm of my hands.  It's a Vietnamese or asian?  I like challenges but sometimes I'm not strong without to handle it.  I'm afriad.  I'm afriad of loosing him but it always cause by my own falut.  In his heart I'm like his dream girl but........It's just a crush I have to risk and I took a chance.  It hurt sometimes because usu. girls are like"I haven't seen him for a week and I can't wait for this weekend" I'm different.  "I miss him but I don't know when I'm going see him again"  He gave me almost all his time.  Even though in WA, I'm going see him the next morning when I wake up but he was all I could think about.  I couldn't focus on anything else.  I couldn't focus on the main reason why I was in Seattle.  How am I suppose to wait for you when I have to learn to trust you, oneday relize I  love you, and learn everything about you.  My heart is still a bit naive and complicated and hard to please.  I don't fall easily.  My closest friends know how I am.  He said he would move and be with me and leave everything behind. "I don't need anything but you"  I'm not sure if my parents except it. I'm growing up and let me have the chance to find out whats love is about. I can't be that little girl forever.  I do like him ALOT and I know he's something speacial and hard to find.  He's always a mystery to me.  I don't know if he's the guy I suppose to be waiting for this life.

Alex: Sometimes, I'm jealous of what Mike and Erica had.  I wanted to have that but I think of you.  How could Vy wait like that?  I'm just going say.  Your boyfriend will be the luckest guy.

"Vy,there is no such things as the perfect guy"

Uncle: You haven't find the right guy yet.  Maybe, he could be the one.  I dont know.  It's your choice to find out.

 How can I have time to find out through phone calls?  He sucks at conversation.>: [  When he vist and I will figure what I want.  Everything will fall into places when I'm with him.   Just give me time......I'M CONFUSED RIGHT NOW.  Nobody can help me but myself.  [[[STFU if you're not being ask]]]

I'll just continue listening to my heart. <3

Me: I'm sorry, I got frustrated on the phone last time and my tone wasn't very pleasant.  I was moody. I was happy,hyper,mad, and sad.  I feel like I wanted to cry.

Him: Why?

Me:I can't tell you.....

I need to work on that.

Even when we're apart I feel you
In the air
I'm not afraid
I know what you're thinkin'
I can hear you everywhere

Some people say it'll never happen
And we're just wasting time
But good things come when you least expect them
So I don't really mind

We'll be together come whatever
Not just staring at the stars
Just remember
That no one else could tell us who we are
We'll be together so don't ever
Stop listening to your heart
Cuz I can't turn mine up

I can't pretend
This is a rehearsal for the real thing
Because it's not
And I know we're young
I can't help feeling what I'm feeling
And I won't stop

Some things are meant to be and will be there
When the time is right
Even though I know that

I swear I wish... you were tonight

Don't ask people to make important descion for you. All they can do is give you advice.*cough Rochelle TELL ME EVERYTHING ! [INSIDE JOKE]]

  I'm bless because I can tell my bestest friends everything.  They're important to me more than I could say.  Nobody else understand but my best friends in the world and my sisters.  I just got offered a job at Hollister when I walk in yesterday and I was like"I'm going be taken by Abercromie and Fitch" She was like"Take it as a compliement" 

 Even though, I wear Hollister the most and American Eagle.  I'm <3 their clothes.

  I'm getting a new 2008 Toyota and its candy red.  Don't ask me anything else about it !

I haven't given alot chance in life and I need to stop be afriad to take it.  I know my flaws and I'm not perfect.  I'm lazy.  I dislike people easily and I don't give a damn.  I'm hard to satisfield and I still don't give a damn.  I have a bad temper which improve alot.: ]  I like to be like.: ]  I like to laugh and I like it when my friends would look at me like Im crazy but think I'm funny.  I'm happest when I'm around friends and I like meeting ALOT people.  I'm very social and friendly.  I'm not a little shy anymore like I used to be when I was younger  up to 16 years old.  New and old friends keep me sane.

  I'm only 18 years old and two of my hopes and dream came true.  I'm glad i had a chance to model in Seattle, WA and people said they like me best.  I was the cutest inside and out.  I'm going continue in education in college.  I've been through ALOT in my life but life is going well for the MOST point right now but nothing last forever.   I'm enjoying it. Sweet tea,Thai tea make me smile.

MY LIFE

Imperfection to perfection
Current mood: loved

My "PERFECT" boy

I believe everyone have a soulmate.  You just don't look for love.  If there is faith it will come to you.  You can say love happen like magic.  Love is a mystery.  Love is magic that drawn to people together.  Who am I to talk?  I have never been in love and not in a hurry too.  "If this is puppy love than I'm afriad to handle the real thing"  I don't why I have to make everything so complicated.  It's something I have to deal with.  "Do Vy like him?"  "Vy's a complicated girl"  It's worth waiting for that one person,just one person in your life."One love one life"  I just want to fall in love just once.  I want to be with him. 

He has to be cute/sexy in many ways. I don't want just a pretty face,well-rounded,hard-working,nice guy,fun to be around/talk to,another hopless romantic,TALL,talented, and sporty with a charming personality.  I'm waiting to meet the boy that make me heart smile and eveything he say and does make me think about it over and over.  The guy who give the best hug in the world.  He hold me tight in is arm and hold me like he never want to let go and when I push him away he grabbed me back in his arm like he couldn't live without me.  He doesn't need to tell me he/how much he love me/like /care but show me he does.  It's nice to hear it once in awhile when the moment is right.  I have to feel excited/nervous to see him and just him like nobody else is around.  The guy who thinks I'm beautiful in everyway and nothing is more important in his mind than myself. A boy who will call in the middle of work to tell me"I'll miss you and how are you?"  " I was thinking about you earlier and just wandering what are you up to?"  He will do just anything to see me for a few mins and who is afriad of me rejecting him at first but still take the risk to get to my heart.  A boy who have patient, and very laid-back because I'm not that much of a patient person.Heh  He'll look at me like I'm on crack or like I'm crazy but still smile at me.  I like that.;]  I want to be the one that make him laugh and he has to be the one that put up with my hyperness and "vyness" Is a tough job "Does it matter where he is as long as he with the only girls he truely like"  Someone that call me his princess and treat me like one and care about me with all his heart/have his own thoughts and doesn't care what people say.  A guy who we both went challenges to be together like a story.   I like the challenge.  I don't like someone who crush easily and challenges are fun.  AND! stesssful... It will be worth it in the end.  I'll still miss him even if I didn't see him for three days or two.  Someone I can't never mean to but act a different ways that barly any guys can see that side of me before.  Someone who is a good listener and can just listen to me say the most crazy/randomest thing at time and listen to me cuss, express my thoughts, and be understanding about everything.  When I'm mad and he can hold me me without knowing just say"I'm always there for you" " If it make you feel better you can take your anger out on me or hit me as many times as you want" but how can I do that with words like that? Someone that is willing to talk to me for hours and hours as we lay in bed sharing our dreams and talk about everything until morning even though, he's tired.  He stills think of me even though he's right next to me.  I what to be on always on his mind like he's going be in mine.  I been told there is no such things as the perfect guy but in my heart he could be.  It's worth waiting for the prince chraming of my childhood dream. 

"Vy's too picky" I hear that many times but if you want to fall in love with prince charming don't settle for less and I'll be your cinderella.

~Vy

Fade away
Current mood: determined

 Everytime I see you in my dream, I see your face is still haunting me. 

 I make believe, that you are here;is the only way I see clear.

What have I done? 

You seen to try to let go easily.

This is killing me but my weakness cause you pain.

At night, I pray that soon your face will fade away.

Why am I still thinking about you? Why is my feelings usu. so moody toward you?

..........I miss you........

Hopes and dreams
Current mood: hopeful

SoOo, I am a hopless romantic and also a wishful thinker.  I plan to be pretty well-known in my future. Beside, waiting for my fairy-tale,of coarse?I'm creative,unquie,and artsy and I'll be good majoring something with those quailties.

I'm still thinking right now and doing research.

Maybeeee

Vy T. Nguyen as a

-Photographer

-Fashion Designer/part-time model(I'm not the tallest girl)= [*

-Cartoonist

-an arthur for children

Home sweet home
Current mood: happy

 I'm finally back.  It seem like forever. This was the most boring trip I ever had. Lets just say that.  I can't believe I changed my mind about starting a new chapter in Orlando,FL.  I miss VA more than I imagine.  I can't go to college here anymore.  I have reasons. I just can't believe how much I miss it here when I said how stress and emotional I was sometimes and sick of this bad feeling. I learned from this,to appreciate what I had more than ever.= [ How much I changed and I'm a hard person to figure out more than I thought. **I really miss being hyper** I haven't had a good laugh in a while and was so happy to be back in Virginia unlike last vacation,  I just didn't feel comfortable with my relative in Orlando like I did in Vietnam.  I still miss my friends and relatives very much.

The trip was very chill, I like to listen to my great aunt tell stories but that's it,nothing else.Haha She's okaaay.=] She told me she never been in love.  She was from a very rich family until them VN war and had many talent and alot men fall for her.  My great aunt still haven't fall for anyone but was made to marry someone she doesn't love.

I thought it was pretty sad. Imagine how it would feel to never been in lo.v.e until you're old

I can't believe there is someone more pickier than me.Heh

Goodbye Senior year/Goodbye my class of 07

I can't believe highschool is over for me now.  My upperclassmen year went hella fast esp. Senior year.  I'm so happy to be finally a h.s graduate.  Time to grow the fuck up,stop being lazy,be more mature, and who knows:]  Welcome to the this real world"I don't need you to hold my hands" Nobody said life was easy. I need to be more hardworking because I feel like I wasn't barly satisfield in Highschool.

 I could of done better.  I could of been better.  But..I'm still proud of who I become?

Nobody is perfect

I tried to be perfect
But nothing was worth it
I don't believe it makes me real
I'd thought it'd be easy
But no on believes me
I meant all the things that I said

If you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I'm better off on my own

This place is so empty
My thoughts are so tempting
I don't know how it got so bad
Sometimes it's so crazy that nothing could save me
But it's the only thing that I have

If you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I'm better off on my own

<3Vy

This dream still exist
Current mood: refreshed

Sometimes last year, I would dream that I ask you question that I didn't get to toward the end last year and begaining of this year.  I would tried and tell myself"Today is the day" You pass by looking at me from a distance and I look away.Damnit...You had already become something from the past.  Something to look back upon and smile about.  I don't want you to come back randomly anymore. No more awdward slience,blank expression,pretend to look down,look away,sad pretty eyes from you but you smile toward the end I wanna give  you the normal smile you wanted when I see you.

<3Vy

This thing called life
Current mood: dorky

do you know where you're going to?
do you like the things that life is showing you?
where are you going to?
do you know?
do you get?when you look behind you there's no open door
what are you hoping for?
once we were standing still in time
chasing the fantasies
that filled our minds
you knew how I liked you
but my spirit was free
laughing' at the questions
that you once asked of me
now looking back at all we've planned
we let so many dreams
just slip through our hands
why must we wait so long
before we'll see
how sad the answers
I`m currentky listening to Janice Wei`s songs and pretty much in love with some of her songs

My favorite is My Love My Fate

Will always be the song I think of you the most<3

Why must everything be so complicated for me? Am I that much of a complicated person. Nothing is more complicated than my heart itself

It`s 1:10 right now and I`m about to get ready for graduation. Both my parents and sisters going see me.  My best friends and a few friends might be there.  I`m sOo nervous/excited at the same time.  I couldn`t sleep so I kept Mike up too. What am I going be like when it`s over?

Goodbye to my Senior year
Current mood: anxious

:( Aw..man Already? SIGHT!  Senior year went by hella fast but I highschool year doesn`t,well not to me esp. my 9th and 1Oth grade year.  This year is my favorite.  Every year I end up loosing my temper atleast once in school but not this year.  I become alot sweeter and smile more.=] From that angry ''gangsta girl" that barly smile to that sunshine.  People even ask jokely"Vy, are you on crack"  I do laugh too much but it`s good for the health.  I feel pretty lucky sometimes.  I cherish what i have instead of wanting more improvement.  I feel pretty confidence most of the time. No "What if" this and that often.  I`m only 18 and I will learn more about everything in general.Duh  This is a good ending. " I take one last look at you and turned away from you again,but for the last time.  I should smile like nothing ever went wrong.  You`re my unforgetable memory. In the end of everything,just smile.  Did i learn that from him?

Last day of school: It wasn`t really my last day because I didn`t have to take exams.  Coooool!  i went to school to return my books,payed for thr three text books I lost, and ROTC piece of shit.  They already found my books and they don`t have me down for missing anything. WTF? o.o i had a feeling this was going be a good day. YES! I felt so lucky.  I saw Ha at the library and walked with her to return her and my ROTC crap. FAGS  We just talk about everything. Funny..funny like always.  i love being around this fresh of the airplane viet of mine.<3 I vist mrs. Dragos and she congrated me.  She really cool and caring.  i want to buy her a "thank you,or believing me and puting up with me" gift.  After that, we had chocalate cake from Al.Hehehe Chocalate...I supposed to meet Devin and Rochelle at my locker. Sorry Devin! I don`t think if Rochelle even remember.  ha left so i went to sit with Devin,Nick, Jen was withme and Q-man.  They were trying take pictures of me. I hate it.  I`m probably going miss seeing Nick.  I went and got ready to hear them talka bout graduation and their brillant plan.Haha 

 I sat with Devin and his friends.  When Jose came I started "OMG!!"  He loves it.  That`s still my hoe. I know him since 6 grade and I`m going miss that fag.  I was so nervous. Why?!  It wasn`t Jose that make me nervous. Hope not!XD Haha  I hope that prononce both of my name right!  It was`nt as bad as I though.  I have my friends around me where i sit but i sat next to a boy who kept hitting on me.  It`s okay, that`s the same boy I I act. try to beat up at some party because he was invading my personal space.  The first practe was more complicated for the teachers but we took a break and met up with Rochelle ,Devin and Nichelle. We saw Kevin!  OMG!  I`m always act excited to see him.  We kidnapped him. We all went to Strabuck  and just take pictures,sign yearbook, and chill.  It was alot of fun.<3  It was sOo fuckibg hot. Geeeez  It was an unforable moment and a good way to end the year.  I rode with Nichelle. my good friend since freshman year. "Something can`t never change"  We saw this guy in the car in front of it.  She said it was Mike.  The guy who she thinks I look cute with and Rochelle said he should meet me. Because he`s half viet? Losers..  She honked the horn and i honked it harder for her.  We started talking across the car.Hah..I throw him some french fries tio feed him.  "What some fries?" He threw back a nickel at Nichelle`s car. Whao...We got to school and I wanted to talk with him a bit.  He seem pretty cool/fun and one of the friendliest people I have met. "You`re very pretty" I thought that was very random and cute.  I went inside and had practice.  I was so tired and look like a bum that day.  I wanted to go home,now.  Rochelle took me hime nad have to payed that bitch 5 dollors so you won`t stopped in the middle of the street. Bitch..

My Senior year survey:

Most sweestest memory: 

-In the begaining of the school when he touch my hands and let go slowly for the last time

- When *** said he would payed someone to sees me and said he won`t let me get off the phone until I sound happier.

-When I AD for the speacial ad kids and I was very good with them[[My very sweet side]]

-When I cry as I wrote everything down about my vacation in Vietnam and how much it meant to me.  They are going be out of my life for a long time and just so sad.  I don`t cry easily at all because im` a tough girl. Remember?

-When Kevin took me to clinic and took care of my injury.  I thought that was the most cutest thing.  My toes look pretty ugly at that point. It was bloody.  Even, the nurse was diguested and she was like, "please go wash your hands,"to him.  Even one of the girl lying in there got up and was like"That`s sweet."

-At Skate Quest;]

Unforgetable moment:

-How I met Billy,B-Lam, and Ha(It was all in front of the main doors)

-When Rochelle and me talk on the phone for hours while on online looking at the video of hot asain guys.  How much we were screaming on the phone.

-Hanging out at Sukara,Stevie`s b-day,Bowling,and etcs[[[[The fun times]]]

-My unforgetable stories [For me to know for you to ask and find out]

-The new friends I met

-When I heard about Va Tech and Chris M.

-My cousin`s wedding

-On Kathy`s birthday and when i couldn`t come to the party I helped plan for Lydia

I felt sOo emotional for some reason.

Favorite teachers: Mr.K

Worst teachers: Blair at first

Most like class:  I`m satisfield with every class I`m on just ROTC I dislike.  I wasn`t the only one.  Classes are better than this year.  I had to change some much of my classes this year.  It took a week and it was crazy. Complicated..shit....as always for me? SoO from switching out of mrs. m`s class because she was crazy psycho.j/k to being in ROTC and changing three different Goverment teachers and wanting to swtch ROTC and than quit being an AD for special AD for some reason and being an AD for Oddie`s class and AD for mr. K`s ESOL class.  I like that class. It was very entertaining.

Worst class: ROTC DUH..I`m glad i`m part of it,I guess. Only because everyone that know me was shock."OMG..you`re too girly blah blah" That`s prove them wrong and I like the reaction.

Why in the world did I get hurt more than other year? From falling 743847th times at SQ(I came homw with bruises all over my body esp. my hips)  I didn`t walk right for a week, from missing half my nails on my toes, falling from that runing machine and left a scar too, another two scars from SQ, and rwusted my ankle at prom and being the floor because I had cramps on my legs.

Look at the bright side

I wasn`t as stress as last year

Thank god, I don`t do in highschool dating shit.  My own "Luv" stories shit is complicated and unforgetable enough already.  It`s cute and and I`m hard to satisfield.  I remebered in 9th and 10th grade I reject hugs."I can`t hug you unless i like you,That`s how it works,right?"  "If you`re not a virgin, do`nt talk to me" Ha ha ha I told myself I just wanted to protect my heart when i was alot younger but why must I cause so much confusion and stress,pain to others because I wanted to protect myself from getting hurt.  I didn`t meant to but I guess I did what i had to do. "Everything hapen for a reason."Though, I do like the attenion but I had always want to be with "the one" Someone perfect in my eyes  I`m not a little girl anymore.   Someday, it`s going be worth while and he`ll feel really lucky because I waited on just one person. 

Prom 07
Current mood: calm

 Senior prom 07

 It was such an interesting day.  Once again, I felt rush and I should be.  I waited for my dad to get home.  I waited for my friend to call.  I waited for him to make up his mind.  I gave him direction.  Interesting..Everything would be fine.  It was raining but I still went for a walk to make sure that he know where he`s going.  I had Rochelle on the phone with me.  It keep me company. I waited for about a good 10 mins.  I just walk around the block. 

 She finally arrived and we`re out.  " Did you see me walking in the rain?" "Isn`t it cute?" My dad said, 'it wouldn`t be cute if you get sick" 0.o -.- We got to my mom`s salon at 5ish.0.o  My mom was really busy too. I felt bad.  I have to do my make-up myself. -.- I really like my dress.*-* Damn, I have good taste.  It took awhile for us to get ready. For some reason, I was really annoyed.  I was`nt satisfield.  I wish I had more time.  Alice came and helped Ha out with her hair.  I think about 6:40 we left to go to Sakura.  Eeeek!  My prom crew waited for an hour.Heh..heh Billy lok really cute.  I forgot his little flower thingy. To be honest, I didn`t know about it.  I didn`t get for my prom date last year too.Hehehe The food was really good and the cheif was humorous.  He kept picking on Rochelle.  R.J can not be normal for oneday.hehehe*wave*

 We left and Alice`s brother picked us up. Dude, I like that moment.  It was cute.  It does NOT take long to get there.  I was like"already?" It seem plain at first but it was okay.  I wasn`t like"OMG, how beautiful!"  I didn`t want to take pictures. HATE it..hate it I just want to dance the night away.  I had no idea what was going on with me on the dance floor.  I was pulling Billy`s tie and slapping,pulling R.J`s hair and grabbing him like a bitch. Rochelle think I grabbed her hair too. 0.o I was like everywhere.0.o  I thought I was be a little shy a first to dance with him but boy, when my type of song came on, I thought wrong.  I get tired so easily.  My waist hurt and I sat in the middle of the floor randomly, about like 5 times.  I was so sweaty! Ewww!  I felt a little uncomfrotable at one point. Aw... During the dance, my feet got twisted and I was"Whao, WTF?" You have got to be kidding me.  I still kept dancing with one feet.  I`m just that talented.  I`m not going let that ruin my fun!  I had to be carry to my table but when we walked out of the I`m a good girl.  We left dancing room;there was so much pain in my leg,suddenly.  I was on the ground for a couple of mins.  I wanted to cry but I had to laughed.  This is too werid. Why me!?  I got a little cranky.  I was like"Get away from me for 1 min." Geeez  I had to be carried to the car again.  It was still so much fun though.  I`m not going put too much details in this blog. I can act drunk without actually drinking. Me and Rochelle had to take of our shoes to really dance.  Someone stepped on my feet.  I think it was some fatass bitches and my friend.  My toe is purple,green, and pink.  I not being dramactic but I can`t barly walk now.  You should of been there to see why.  I think me and Billy look so cute together that night.  I`m going miss my best friend.=[

  I called my dad after prom to asked him if I can stayed out a little late.  He was giving me a hard time and such. What`s new?  Ha is going to sleep over with me but we wanted B-Lam to sleep with us too. Not like that!  He could sleep in another room.  I wanted ro stayed up until dawn and talk about everything and make B-Lam share his secrets. Too bad, my dad didn`t let me go back to my mom`s house and there was no more room for B-Lam.  It not cool for a boy to be in the same room as a girl.  He`s so look so innocent and trust-worthy and he is.  We all went back to R.J`s and talk for awhile.  We went home at around 2pm.  Me and Ha couldn`t open the door at my dad`s because it was locked.0.o  I knocked on it a cople times and my sister`s window and it just open a couple mins. later.  Did my sister open it or my dad? I couldn`t see anyone. I told HA it was a ghost.  She was scared.  Me and Ha talked about prom until 4ish.  I had a good time.  This will become one of my favorite memory.

I didn`t put any personal details/feelings in this blog. Too personal for myspace

My random thoughts and random feeling

This may sound very korny/dorky but I don`t care what you think

LOL

The best moment when I saw finally saw him

I felt gulity( I haven`t told anyone why)

I felt satisfield

I almost felt pain inside and deffinally out(My legs,duh)

He always make me wonder

 **I don`t care anymore and why should you?** I guess we it doesn`t matter anymore but it doesn`t show it that night.

This feel so much like a movie to me

I`m sure Ha agreed.=]

I`m pretty lucky sometimes.

This year prom is better than last year

but why must it always get cold and rainy?(My Junior prom and Senior prom)

Friends could become lovers?

Honestly, when does it sometimes doesn`t seem like reality

Why do all good thing come to an end

Cherish every moment

I know I did and I have my feet to prove it

The weekend
Current mood: cheerful

I haven`t update in awhile. I`m going share my world inside of my thoughts/feeling. Something new?

 I had something plan on saturday.  I planned like two things in one day. We were going to meet up at the hukka bar or MCDonald to talk about everything? My mom`s salon is right next to the hukka bar and I wanted to go there to see for myself!  I couldn`t reach B-Lam.  I gave him only 9 digets numbers.0.o hehe As for Billy, I`m was like"lost"  Rochelle kept calling and wanted to cancel it or something. I was annoy/frastited enough already.  Hell no, I`m not going cancel it!  If I want it to happen, it better happen.  She couldn`t make it.  Alice gave B-Lam a ride.**phew**  I made  B-Lam beautiful that day. They think he`s adorable.  That`s my hk friend.

 Aleck came earlier than I thought and he and his "friend" j/k lol went and started smoking hukka.  I thought he was high but than they laughed at me."You can`t get high by smoking it"  I had McDonald and I`m still addicted to ice tea.hehe My love!  B-Lam got hungry so we went to McDonald and talked about our plan so more. Alice,me, and Alice were trying our best to gave Toad direction.  I feel so "Blah" today slow. -.- I`m not as engertic. Why!?  Where is red bull when you needed it? j/k Wish I more fun today! Man, I wanted to play in the playground.  I missed those days.  I climbed up there.  I slide down and I`m satisfield.  Never again..never again..Erica and Mike came to get me. 

 They we went to the hukka bar for awhile, again.  Billy came with the others.  I went out and greet them.  I followed them to McDonald, AGAIN.  I felt bad leaving Erica,Mike,Alex and his friend at the hukka bar.  I was thinking about it the whole time and was trying to come  back as soon as possible.  We were separated.XD I hope they`re weren`t upset.  We left McDonald when they left the hukka bar at the same times.XD I rused toward them. Aleck had to leave with Mellisa and coming by in a little wild.  Billy,Jack, and Toad left a bit after them.  We were chilling in the parking lot. Mike turned the music up and we`re just dancing in the parking lot for a bit.  I hope my mom didn`t see me.  I told her" Mom, didn`t u see me dancing?"  We waitd for awhile too.  I kept callling.  It was like 9ish and the salon is closing soon.  I don`t know if she let me go.(Don`t ask) I was worried. 

 Aleck,John, and Gray, showed up.  My mom was like tellimg Mike that everything is close right now.-.- I thought I couldn`t go.  I told her these Vietnamese guys can take me.(Even though, I just met them) LOL She doesn`t have to know that part.  She had like 5656 mins. talked with John 0.o It was funny.  They weren`t how I expected them to be.  I`m usu. an outgoing person but I admit I was a little shy when I met them.(Just a little) Aleck was surprised too.  My mom finally let me go. Yay! She gave me $50 bucks to go. Whao...0.o I felt bad.: / It was just Erica,Mike, Aleck,John,his brother, and me.  We went Sliver Dinner. It sux and I`m pissed.  I wasted $20 on a pice of shit. I had steak angus? WTF is that?  It was raining and it`s was getting really late.

I called Aleck up and talked about everthing until 4pm.  He`s the best observer evaaa.  I wish people can understand me like he does.[[Most of the time]] That`s my cool half breed friend.=]

vietcutiepiexoxo (3:13:52 PM): This might sound very korny
vietcutiepiexoxo (3:13:54 PM): but...
xChinoChapinx (3:13:57 PM): o.O
xChinoChapinx (3:13:58 PM): O.o
vietcutiepiexoxo (3:14:19 PM): I`m glad we`re finally friends cuz a lot people dont understand me
vietcutiepiexoxo (3:14:22 PM): It`s hard
vietcutiepiexoxo (3:14:27 PM): idk y...
xChinoChapinx (3:15:01 PM): Hmm, I'm glad we're friends too :]  I try to understand you hahah xD
xChinoChapinx (3:15:30 PM): People just need to take the time to listen to you is all.. but you're the type of person where one must read between the lines to understand, atleast that's how i see it
vietcutiepiexoxo (3:16:45 PM): =]
vietcutiepiexoxo (3:16:58 PM): Do u think u know yourself pretty well right now?
xChinoChapinx (3:17:47 PM): Somewhat.. There are still some things that surprise me, somethings about me I don't accept
xChinoChapinx (3:18:24 PM): But overall I try, much more easier for me to read/understand people than myself
xChinoChapinx (3:18:57 PM): But I'm confident xD, why do you ask ?
vietcutiepiexoxo (3:19:54 PM): J/C cuz I`m still learning about my personalty too
vietcutiepiexoxo (3:20:04 PM): there r something that I dislike
vietcutiepiexoxo (3:20:15 PM): n i try to improve dat
vietcutiepiexoxo (3:20:39 PM): I like how u talk
vietcutiepiexoxo (3:20:43 PM): hah
xChinoChapinx (3:21:10 PM): Yeah, pretty sure you figured this out but the first thing is to always accept who you are.  From there one can figure out what one must do.  :] Atleast that's what I've learned.
xChinoChapinx (3:21:30 PM): We seem to always have good talks Vy :P
xChinoChapinx (3:21:45 PM): We shall call these .. "Sessions" I should charge :P
xChinoChapinx (3:21:47 PM): hahah jk jk xD

 Happy Mother day to all moms! I`m going to buy her flowers and put food on the table right now.

Sping break part 2
Current mood: happy

 So...I decided to go bowling instead of Skate Quest.  I don`t want to fall again and I was plaining on to wear a flip flops.  I got there a little late. EEK!

Rochelle: Try not to be late!

Tim: I`m going arrive there a little late because I know you will

It`s not my fault.  I don`t have a car.  I was waiting for my dad to wake up.  He`s always giving me a hard time.x [ Poor me!!  Tim and the others was already there before me. Hehe  We waited for Erica and Mike to come.  We had to wait 45mins. for a table.  We went to Taco Bell.  I thought everyone was hungry.  We went there for nothing.  I asked them if they want to go to Starbuck? Rochelle: Lets walk to Starbuck 0.0  Why did I agreed?  Why did everyone else agreed?! HAH...It was really cold.  I ordered B-Lam and myself a cold/caremel frap.  I should if get us something hot to drink.  Erica and her bf got there and Tim introduced everyone. Thanks....Tim=]**fake smile** 

We played in teams.  It was me, Erica,Billy, and B-Lam VS. Tim, Mike, Jack, and Rochelle  I doubt Rochelle!  She was pretty descent.  I got one stike but a lot more gutter.x ]  The opposite team called me the gutter girl.x ]

Tim: You`re hair look crazy at the end of the game

B-Lam got a turkey or chicken.(Whatever that is) Give me a B-L-A-M! Go B-Lam!  I can`t see the screen.  I don`t have my glasses. -.-

Rochelle: Everyone was staring at us.  You and Erica were so loud and crazy

You love it!

It was a CLOSE game and we thought we had them but we lose by a few points at the end.  Alex came late but still had fun obeserving us.;)

Tim:yea...thnx for inviting me for the bowling and losing so u could pay our food =P....n plus i didnt order chicken wings n bread...it was mike n alex..lol...but again....thnx for losin ...u kno we're the best lol...ha





You ordered TWO LARGE pizzas which we couldn`t finish!! My team payed so we were suppose to ORDER not you. You eat what we get! This is NOT just a game anymore. It`s war between our team. You`re so lucky I suck. x ] AND...you still look like a TURTLE!!!! FAGGGG!! I want revenge.

Billy:i tell you one thing....
yesterday was my second time play bowling...
last time played it was 5 year ago!!
haha...i just lucky got a high score~
dont think about our lose anymore..
just a game...haha...
we had fun....that's important..
is that right?haha....

Alex:I had fun, I definately want to hang out with you guys again :] I'll be waiting for your call =]

B-Lam: If we play bowling next time 
I won't let us lose again= ="

I had so much fun even if we lost.  It was still a good game.

Spring Break 07
Current mood: anxious

  It has been better than I expected.  I wasn`t really bored.HAH....On Sunday, we(family and friends) went to Old Country buffet.  We went out to celebrate my sister 13th b-day and Shawn`s birthday too.  I like that place.  I can never stopped eating there.  I had 5 plates and and refill my drink TWICE and three plates of dessert.  Oh, and Imade myself a root beet float. <3  My dad`s friend was watching me eat. Him: You eat alot but you`re still skinny.0.0  I used to think I have tape worm on something. EW!  I used to work out and now I`m just lazy.x]  I suprised Kim by bring the employees and had them sing to her.x]  After that, we went to Lowe and play there with our imagination.  I was like''This is going be my future sink''=] 

I LOVE Aberomie and Fitch now

 On Monday, sisters and I asked con thu if she could take us shopping.  I NEED more spring/summer clothes.  I haven`t shop since January.0.0  We went to Urban Behavior and there was nothing there. Shocking!  That was my favorite store for awhile.  Hm.....I had to stop by at Aberomie and Fitch.  I saw Robert there.  I felt werid at first and didn`t feel like talking.  I haven`t seen in awhile.  I still talked to him, anyways.=]  I noticed a white guy staring at me and he approached me.  He said He likes my image. Heh... I was like''Okay...'' =] He offered me at job at Aberomie.  I wasn`t really interested.  I had to ask my dad.  It`s so hard having a strict/werid dad.=[  I gave him my numbers to call me for my interview.  He looks really young for a manager.  I spend awhile looking for my sisters.  They left me.  I did not see them at Papaya.  They said they are going be there.gdgsfhgsfhgw  It was a good and bad day beacuse I LOST the American eagle bag that I just brought.  I still manage to buy my Kim and Shawn cool gift.=] I got myself smoothie.  I had starwberry and bananas.  I saw a lot of my friends at the mall.  What a small town.  I`m starting to have a love/hate relationship with this town.  Anyways,We brought cake and it look good.  Buying NEW clothes always make me happy.  I was mad/sad after the mall.  My polo shirt!!!  It was so cute!!

Tuesday, the manger called me and I rushed to get ready.  I tried to look stylish and pro.  I was runing a little late and I ran to Aberomie.  I waited for awhile.  I wasn`t even late!!  I had an interview.  I was very relax and I can be myself in front of him.=]  It was kinda FUN.  He laughed at most of my answers and thinks It`s funny.  He hired me right away. 

Me: Just to let you know......I`m NOT preppy. x]

The BIGGEST problem is.....=[ I can`t work right now.  I have to wait until June.  It`s good in the hood.  It`s going be interesting working with a bunch of preps.x]  There is a few cute guys there.=]  We sang ''happy birthday'' and ate cake.  it was GOOD.  Dinner was great.

On Thursday, My mom is taking us to a restaurant to celebrate Kim`s b-day and Shawn.  It`s interesting to have divorced parents.x]  I made plans this Friday.  We might go skating with a group of people or bowling.  I want to go bowling!!

-sigh- I still have some homeworks I need to do.  I`m glad I feel a little more carefree these days

These days
Current mood: lazy

 PEOPLE

 I`m trying to pass everything I take in school and nothing else should be as important right now.  If you think I`m mad at you/dislike you/hurt by me/ignore or act a different way to get my attention and etcs,you should come TALK to me about your thoughts.  I am not going to play the game you played.  I don`t want to think about stupid shiet that might be true or no be true, until I get tired. 

Maaaan, I just wish people weren`t so confusing,care more about others,dull,more open,selfish,stupid,stop jumping into conclusion,think before they act, smartass,clueless, so neg, and stop pissing me off.  I deff. can`t stand moody motherfukas.-.-

I just wish you understand.  I just wish I didn`t care so much.

I don`t want to be around a certain friends anymore.  I want to be around some new people except for my the CLOSEST people in my heart.

I haven`t written one letter back to Vietnam.  my mom`s faggot bf lost it.  That guy piss me off.DAMNIT!  I ave to write another one sooooon but the longer they wait; the MORE they will miss you. HAHA It`s the same thing with boys too.HAH...heh..Those are the people I care about the MOST,chrish, and maybe LOVE.

I seriously need to stop being so complicated and I take my self too seriously about everything.=]  I hurt my head by thinking too much.

BUT, I noticed I`m laugh a little more and smile a little longer.=] 

Always look at the bright side

I still think about about a certain person from last year, few times.  It`s like''whatever'' seeing him now.  I still loose all my thoughts when I see him.  I walked without a words recently, but I`m sure he`s already use to it.  I lost the attention I used to get from him.

 The only dream I have of him was how he try to play plays with me, try to get my attention, and the things he would do for me,being around him, and me, trying to tell him how I feel and end up crying because I waited so LONG.  It has been like a year.

I don`t why, I still have a dream about this other guy.  I dream of how much he likes me but I can never see that.

FAMILY

I should call my annoying/conceited but thoughtful cousin more often.  I miss Chi Ha.(Rachel)  We were always so crazy together.=]  My other cousin is getting marry in april. YES!  This is going be FUN.  I have like atleast five dresses and I don`t really like any of them.  They are only a year old.  I want to wear a SEXY black lacey short dress.  I`m just in the mood for it.HAH...

SCHOOL

I stop talking to a lot of people from last year.  I haven`t catch up with a ceratin folks.  I need to give more people my time.  My father is getting more insane.  I can`t even hangout once a week anymore.-.-dgsgdhghcvnm I can`t wait until I grad. and be independence more than before.  Senior is okay to me.  Is not how I thought it would be.=[  I stress out so SO easily.

FASHION

I haven`t brought anything in awhile. I used to go shopping atleast once a week.  It`s a great way to relieve stress and feel nicer.HAHA  BOY, the smiles I get when I spotted the cutest outfit and the frown upon my face when I checked the receipt after Im done paying for it.HAHA

There Got To Be More

There Got To Be More

I go up and I come down, but I`m still feel empty inside.

What is this thing that`s bothering me?!

There go to be more to life

I got the time and I`m wasting in slowly

I still searching for something that`s missing

I`m always waiting for something better than this

There got to be more to life

I got to be satisfield with myself and life.

I need to focus on my dreams.

Always be true to yourself no matter what
Have faith in your dreams
Reach your highest standard
Because I won`t settle for less
Show people you care about that you love them
Laugh at the most stupid things
Say how you feel
Listen to your heart
Block everyone away except for your love ones
Don`t regret anything
Live like there is no tomorrow

My way of living life

The favor of life

1. I want to save money and go back to Vietnam again and see all my friends and family. I adore them alot.

2. I want to get marry with the guys of my dreams

3. I want to be  famous or happy with what I do.

4. I want to buy my parents their dream house

I want a fairytale I always dream of, most of all

Thought and Feelings

Sometimes, I feel like I have too many friends to catch up with.

Sometimes, I feel alone.

Is it maybe I don`t have a cell phone?j/k

I want to able to trust people and be able to love the people I care about in my life right now.

Dreams

Why do I always have dreams about me runing away from something/ ot trying to get away and go to a better place?





I hope that dreams can stop once I get older.


Am I missing something?
Am I runing away from my problems?
Am I not happy?
Am I not chasing my dreams hard enough?
Pete:
When you run in your dream, you may be in a hurry to escape from something "Usually yourself or a current dilemma" or to reach a goal. The dream may indicate that you need to hurry or that your're rushing around too much and need to rest. Are you running alone or with others Vy? The former may symbolize that you will overcome your competition in business matters, while the latter may represent participation in a joyous occasion. If you dream of running way from something, it means that you are moving toward a pleasant and successful life. Running and not getting anywhere indicates a feeling in your waking like that you've lost control of a certain situation.

I think a little too much.

I just wish more people understand me on the inside.

What they say about ME:

Erica: You dance like NO virgin 0.0/Koreansamurai220: heh to me your just a tough girl whos all innocent on the inside
Fr3shLiK3sUsHi: u dance like a broken belly dancer =P
YoBwhothatbe: Glamarous decribes Vy
YoBwhothatbe: You`re 10x prettier
Savii duDette: but you`re like a CUTE silly/ touch girl
Savii duDette: ... a very sweet funny silly girl. but with a tough attitude
Savii duDette: you yhave NICE BOOBS
Savii duDette: haha lol
vietcutiepiexoxo: OMGGGGGG
xcloudx42:Vy, you`re the PRETTIST
vietcutiepiexoxo:Liar haha
matingGrandPas: You`re always have chances but you don`t take them
RisingWarrior89: Yes u r but u r cool
RisingWarrior89: Very pretty
vietcutiepiexoxo: enough with dat short thing
RisingWarrior89: Very chill

Simplest thing in the WORLD make me happy
Current mood: bored

WHY DO I EXPECT TOO DAMN MUCH?

NAGROM31: u  have a b/f?
vietcutiepiexoxo: no...
vietcutiepiexoxo: lol...
vietcutiepiexoxo: you`re so RANDOM...
vietcutiepiexoxo: =p
NAGROM31: im surprised, jus sayin, but u r very pretty

OMG...not a big deal.>.<.just waiting for the perfect guy.....

Savii duDette (9:28:18 PM): i think you could get almost ANY guy you wanted if you like. it just you want something REAL. which is very adorible of you. haha, makes you  more of a real person instead of a sluty whore =]

mizunderstood
Current mood: restless

I Hate being misunderstood.  My parents doesn`t know me at all.  They think I`m becoming they make me feel bad about myself.  I`m hard to understand, I don`t trust people easily, and I hide my feelings well.  I act like everything is fine.  my sisters are always there for me and understand me the most.  I can tell them everything.  My grandprents are just perfect.  I never express my feelings with nobody except this one guy.

Savii duDette: i clearly think that you jsut happy on the outside so people can be happy. but deeply..i think your jsut an emotional girl... wanting to be free
Savii duDette: i feel as if you jsut want to get away from everything. make a new start
Savii duDette: breath.
vietcutiepiexoxo: lol....
vietcutiepiexoxo: only u...mz. x-tine..onlii u can see datt..

Him: You put on act tough and cheery on the outside but on the inside only you know.

Out of everydody I think the so called friends in VA that understand the most is:

~Erica......I tell her everything and I know she will always be ther for me. I trust her.  It`s hard to find someone who understand and listen to you with their heart.

~X-tine I just started telling telling her I realy feel about random things.  I`m was shock at first that she really understand what I`m going through and everything jus make sense and I felt better.

~Long.....whenever I get upset I need you to make me laugh or feel better. 

~Kenny: I tell him alot but he barly understand and it gets me more upset.  He end up saying werid or dumb things.  He`s a good listener.

~Rochelle You`re just cool like that

There is this guy that used to like me.......

him: My first impression was you is that girl who always smile. Just the typical cheerful girl that make everyone in a good mood too.  I didn`t know you have so much to hide from everybody.  I do my best to help you.

You never knowwhat you had until it`s gone....

LEARN SOMETHING NEW ABOUT MYSELF

I just noticed I expect alot and I want everyting to be perfect.  Everybody have a bad and good side...some MORE than ohers....hehe...

Everybody else either I don`t trust you, don`t want you to see me in a like this, you don`t understand, you don`t care, or talking to you it`s like the wall, etcs and etcs.

RANDOM

X-tine: no...you`re not flirty around guys at all.  You`re just act hyper, funny, sacractic, cheerful, and start laughing a lot.

That`s why I luv this girl.

INTERESTING......I just learn something new about MYSELF

Rochelle: I think he wasn`t joking.  Do you like him? he`s interested....What`s your secret? You`re just so comfrotable to be around, and you`re fun.  Your personality is so cool. 

27 Jan 2007

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